to Ojas .. on 4th bday

I want you to follow your own dreams, yet I wish you fulfill all my dreams I could not achieve.

I want you to be independent and fearless, yet I am worried even when you simply want to walk without holding my finger.

I want you to be a self-made man, yet I cannot stop the urge to provide you with everything beyond my capacity.

I want to spend time with you, yet I often make choices to go away from you so that I can spend time with you.

I want you to value inner qualities like love and compassion over skin deep beauty, yet I feel you are the most beautiful kid in this world.

I want you to be down to earth and modest, yet I am so proud of you.

In future, as a grown up, I am the person with whom your opinions may clash the most, yet I will be your biggest supporter in whatever you decide to do.

I am your old man, yet I am at my youngest when I am with you.

Happy 4th birthday Dear Ojas...

Ojas 5th bday

Today is a special day for me.. I am a five year old father today. and what do you expect from a five year old? Goofy, naughty, free from worries and looking forward to nothing but joy..
But its not that simple.. The world is asking me to get serious now.. World is asking me to stop enjoying and work more as a father.. They say I am buying too many toys but should buy more books now.. I want be to be careless and naughty, but they want me to be more coy. When I resist, they say.. tum hi bigad rahe ho bete ko.
I am sure at the school I am sending you now, they are telling you some do's and piling you with tonnes of dont's. Listen to them and try to follow them as many of them serve you good. But there is no one in history who became a great man following all those rules.. To do something different, you have to break some rules.. or may be most of those rules.. Which rules you want to break ? How can I tell? I am just a five year old father.. That will be your decision. But before breaking these rules, learn these rules.. Thats why I am sponsoring your school. You have to learn their game to beat them at it..
You have everything to do that.. Sometimes I envy you.. How easily you get everything you want.. Wish as a grownup I could replace some of my plans with your perseverance.. Really.. You get everything as per your wish , from toys, to books, games and and you do it without hurting anyone, without losing any friends, with no stress and no tension.. Remember this recipe in your heart, it will be handy when you grow up.. It will be your key to success. In case you forget, I wont be able to teach you this as I have almost forgotten this now.
One little exception.. You can break any rule you want but not this one.. Always love your family.. Because if you damage that, the spare you get are not reliable.. and when you get damage, there is no one more reliable than family.
yeah.. You may realize maintaining a family comes at a cost.. It has a high maintenance cost.. You have to be a mule for them and you have to be a tiger for them.. bit tough.. But who said good things come cheap ? And yes.. add some friends to your family.. Have few but close friends.. Like your family.. How to have a loving family and close friends? Be smart for the world but stay naive for them.. Smarter you become while dealing with friends and family, dumber you are in the long run..
Enough of all this.. I am gonna enjoy my fifth birthday as a father today... There is a cake.. There are candles.. There are gifts.. There are people.. all cheering me.. and you are helping me tear all those gift wrappers.. How thoughtful.. Thanks Son..
And by the way.. Isn't it a coincidence that you are also completing 5 years today.. Love and happy birthday Dear Ojas

बाबूजी , आपके गये चार साल हो गये।

बाबूजी , आपके गये चार साल हो गये।

छिना सर से पितृस्नेह का छाता,
क्या कहें हम पर क्या क्या बीता।
दुनिया की कड़ी धूप में खड़े,
हमारे चेहरे क्या, रूह तक लाल हो गये।
बाबूजी , आपके गये चार साल हो गये।

ठीक से रो तक नहीं पाये,
आप सो गये और फिर हम सो तक नहीं पाये।
दुनिया भले कहे कि हम हैं खुशहाल,
सब कुछ रहते भी बड़े कंगाल हो गये।
बाबूजी , आपके गये चार साल हो गये।

सब कुछ दिया ना सिखायी दुनियादारी,
आप गये छोड़ देकर सारी जिम्मेदारी।
अनाथों को दुनियावालों ने ऐसा दिखाया रूप,
आपके बच्चे दुनियादारी में बेमिसाल हो गये।
बाबूजी , आपके गये चार साल हो गये।

दर्द कम न हुआ, हाँ हो गयी अब आदत
आंसू सूखे, पर सीने में अब भी है थरथराहट
आप दिखते वैसे ही मुस्कुराते अपनी तस्वीर में,
आपके बच्चों के होना शुरू सफ़ेद बाल हो गये
बाबूजी , आपके गये चार साल हो गये।

वहाँ से वापस आती सिर्फ याद गये आप बिछड़कर जहाँ,
आपसे मिलूंगा शायद ऊपर, दिल कहता है हाँ
क्या दे सकते हैं हमारा सब कुछ, आपकी बस एक झलक पाने को,
ईश्वर पूछे , तो कहूँ हाँ बिना सोचे,
यह तो निहायत ही आसान सवाल हो गये।
बाबूजी , आपके गये चार साल हो गये।